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HER

A woman that is usually or always seen and scary, cold and heartless is the woman that takes care of herself without depending on anyone. But what no one knows is that, a woman that does not need validation from others is a woman that as Learned that being alone is not scary, is life. That woman has been broken and stripped down by life and she healed herself. She has been let down by the people she trusted through her life, those that should have been there to support her stabbed her or left and she needed them the most. That woman has learned that the only person that she can really depend on is herself, she is her number one supporter. She can heal herself, and pick up all the pieces from her life and continue strong and have a positive attitude. That woman knows never to wait for anyone to show up to fix her life or unbreakable her heart. A strong dependent woman scares man because she doesn’t need their protection or support. What that woman needs is to be accepted, respected and...

Am I ?

Looking back I have realized that I always live my days, my life to what is expected of me. In other words I live a life to appease others. Do what works for everyone around me; and I do what I think other want and need from me. I read somewhere this week that we are or we try to be what we think others think of us. This made me think that it is true for me. I am what I need to be at that time, during the situation, to who I am with. I am what I need to be for those around me. Some days I have a very hard time knowing who I truly am. Who am I ? How would I describe myself if I had to explain in a few words? The truth, I truly really don’t know. Boa Vida. CarlaB

Life

This morning like many other mornings there is a sensation or some might call it a feeling of repetition. The feeling of repeating the same actions, same motions, same reactions. For those that believe in life after life they might say that you are living the same life until you learn the lessons you need to learn to evolve into a higher state. Then I would say I am a slow learner, because I have the strong sensation of déjà Vu. Most morning if feels like the morning before. Same actions, same feeling and hoping for a different outcome. This is also the the definition of insanity!! Boa Vida. CarlaB

Alone

Scary how alone one feels even when surrounded by lots of people, things and noise. All around is noise pollution but that is all that is noise pollution. Everything is passing by so fast that you are not able to see it or feel it. But there is always that single moment in time that everything seems to slow down or even stop and at that single moment in time you realize in your heart that nothing is real. Could it be that this is nothing more than an illusion ? The friendships, the love affairs, the family ties, nothing more than an illusion because at the end of it all we are alone. Alone with our thoughts, fears, and our tears. Boa Vida. CarlaB
What is a dream if not a simple illusion in your head! When does it stop being a dream ? When you now that it is to late and it will never happen because of various reason. I now that some dreams just simply need to stop being, when time does not go back. We always say that hope is that last thing to die, but in the world we live in of stress and speed many of the dreams we had get put a side until one day. Guess what that day will never come, because when you look back life got in the way. Now to even thinking about following some of those hopes and dreams would mean giving up everything you have today and even some of the people in your life that would not accept such dreams. Boa Vida. Carla B
We rush life everyday without ever looking back. We need to be more we need to have more. But what if we were told that life, our life we live everyday is nothing but an illusion, what would you do? We like to believe that we make our on decisions that we only do what we like and don’t like. This is not true we are all pre conditioned to some level. What we like and don’t like, how we behave and think lots of it has to do where we were born and raised. Some of our beliefs and behaviours are brainwashed into us from birth. Yes some we change along the way but other never do. Even some of the things that growing up I always told myself, when I grow up I will never do that. Guess what, I catch myself telling my children the things that it was told to me and yes, I said I will never do that. Interesting how we repeat behaviours and sayings. So the question remains, are we truly us, an individual, or are we products of others, cultures, environments? Food for thought!!! Boa Vida. ...

The job the person

Is the person the job or is the job the person? the question is hard to put in words but is also hard to ask. When do you change to adopt to the job or when do you change the job to be more you? People see me as the job that I do not who I am. If I have to be serious and tough, everyone will believe that is you I am. I am no longer seen or thought as someone fun and nice. In my case the job changed me or I changed for the job. Even that statement is a confusing sentence. The words I changed for the job implies that I consciously changed, that I made that choice willingly. I don’t believe I made a conscious decision it just came with time. Overtime I think I lost me along the way in order to do a good job and be the best. Sacrifices had to be made a long the way and I left pieces of me behind because they did not fit in the new person that I had to be. Perception is half of the battle to get people to see what you what them to see. Act like who you what to be, or act like you already h...